as a writer i should have words. on paper i have words. i can write many words. some may be misspelled, but i have them. on the phone i have words. not always the correct ones, but i have words. in person i have no words. i point at things and gesture with my hands. i forget that people can't read my mind and also that i have only said the words in my head and not actually spoken them aloud. my mouth does not work. my thoughts move too quickly even for me to follow, and my act on impulse is magnified by one hundred. phrases and things that only i myself can put together and understand into a comprehend able statement are what fall from my mouth. in person i am a writer that has no words.